Why I didn't kiss her????

“Hi”

The sudden’ Hi’ from Yeshi glowed my face and thundered in heart.”Am I the only lucky friend in her list whom she wishes to chat?”

Yeshi has a long reddish hair, running through her lovely chicks. She has all the qualities of an angel; tall, fair, attractive and lovely with charming face. She used to be every guy’s dream girl during her high school, and I was one among them who deeply loved her. I always wished her to be mine but the fear of rejection and becoming popular for being rejected made me kept dreaming. And now after 3 years of our high school, I am meeting her online. How grateful Facebook is!

“Hi, after long time bck….. Hw r u duin?” I quickly wrote back. Our chat continued for a while, and made some interesting conversation. I made sure that, every chat of mine was of some sense to her, and tried being myself so good, understanding and affectionate. As we continued chatting, we shared about our life, college, likes, dislikes and so on. I chatted in a way to reveal my feelings for her I had since then. The chat rekindled buried love that was almost forgotten.

The chat continued between us every day and we became closer with every chat. But still I couldn’t share my feelings, fearing to lose her friendship. I told her I was dying to meet her and we agreed each other to meet during the following vacation. And so we kept in touch and behind I was eagerly waiting for the moment.

The white color shirt, faded black jeans with my new Addidas Sniker was looking cool to my eyes as I dressed up before dressing mirror. Spray of my brother’s scent added sweet aroma. “Now, am I presentable enough for her?”  With doubt, I walked out of my bed room holding cell phone.

As I approached near her, I got nervous and didn’t know what I should say. And after some silence, she said, “Hi”. “Hi”, I somehow managed to reply but couldn’t speak any further. Silence developed between us once more until we both burst out into smile looking at each other. I never thought she would be that beautiful. So, with that smile we started exchanging words. I hesitated she might be feeling bore as I just kept talking bullshits, and the cloudy weather of Gedu made it even worse. Then, I felt I should share my long awaited words of feelings and propose her.

So, I enquired, “Do you have boyfriend?”  Deep inside, I was praying that she be single and my heart bit increased.

After some pause, “NO”, she replied. What a relief!

“Why”, she questioned me then.

Taking refuge in mysterious Lam Drukpa Kuenley, I decided to speak out everything. “I Love you” and it continued, I still can’t remember what followed after. Then obviously, I was worrying what her reply could be. She stayed silent and it made me worried even more.

"Don’t take me wrong, I was in love with you from the day I saw you at Drukgyel, and now after knowing you very well, I fear to lose you. I am sure you do have feelings for me, and I promise you that you will never regret for accepting me”, I added.

After that, I didn’t know what to speak more, and she kept herself silent, hiding her face. She was embarrassed. I asked for her hand, and she gave it to me without any hesitation. 

Holding her hand, “I love you truly”, I spoke again. She looked at my face, and I was already blushed by that time.

“I love you too, but hope you truly have feelings for me”. She replied after thinking for a long time. I was smiling by then. I didn’t speak any further, but just hugged her. We both were shyly smiling. We spent some time sitting on a green lawn, looking down towards the college campus. She hesitantly rested her head on my shoulder. Her fragrant hair was waving gently along with cool breeze. She looked amazingly beautiful under the moonlit!

It was getting darker, and I thought I shouldn’t keep her late night. So after sharing some feelings for each other, I went to drop her till her hostel. But before she left I asked for a kiss. How I could ask her on our very first date? I still wonder. But anyhow I did that night. She smiled in return. As I approached nearer, she closed her eyes. Her lips were glowing, and I knew she too aspired that.

Her lips weren’t even an inch away from mine.” DHEW….class na mee joo bu?” Shit, it was my roommate Sherub shouting at me as he left for the morning classes.

I wish the dream come true.