Fear

Fear is defined as an unpleasant emotion caused by the threat of danger, pain, or harm. It’s also defined as a feeling of anxiety concerning the outcome of something or the safety of someone. Most of the times, many of us fear of failure, results, torture, rejection, sickness, fear of being alone and lastly death. Some of us even fear to face the crowds, to be responsible and even to stand for oneself.

Since we are born in this world of suffering, it’s not easy for us to exclude our sufferings. Fear and worry will be always with us, which is all because of our desire and attachment. So in order to be happy and stay away from fear it’s really important for us to practice dharma and develop the nature of Buddha hood. It’s really tough to develop a compassionate mind and nature of Buddha hood in ourselves but we should strive for what is best for us.

For me, I am trying my best to be without fear and worry. Maybe my mind isn’t so pure. Most of the times, I fear about my parents and families, fear of losing them someday. I fear about my younger brother’s future. I even do fear about my future and sometimes about my future wife too. But I do have ample of fears amongst which I fear death the most.

I know I will die, someday, sometime, may be after few seconds or may be after few years. But most of the time, I fear what if I die without fulfilling my wishes and dreams. I have many dreams to fulfill. I want to repay my parents, my country and want to make my path for next life. I wish to help others and all sentient beings and to die satisfied. I don’t want to die regretting.

I even fear about myself - what if my mind changes with time, what if my life has been worthless. I know it’s not easy for me to fulfill my wishes since doing that means to leave this life of current normal being and devote my life to Buddhism. But to your surprise, I do have lots of care and affection towards my family and I also do worry about their future. This may be against what Lord Buddha said, “attachment”. Hence I feel this is all due to my previous sins and karmic actions.

Today my friend Gyembo told me that one of his friends in another college had lost his consciousness (I pray for him to be fine soon). Even that feared me. It’s all unpredictable as that might happen to me too, who knows. So I plan not to waste my precious life.

I am completely aware of making my way for next life and to help all other sentient beings. But I have to be a monk and leave this normal human life. Yet I believe that I won’t be able to follow it wholesomely as I am neither a monk nor a complete follower of Buddha.

So I hope Buddha will guide me through the right path and let me die in peace without any fear and regrets. Hope I can fulfill my dreams and wishes with the blessings of Buddha and be free of fear.

Are you aware of your fear and its cause??????